“I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.” – Ned Vizzini

I did this photo last April, after I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. It was the turning point for me, where I realized and acknowledged that I need help.

Here I am, 10 months later.

So little has changed.

April 10, 2016:

I haven’t done anything creative in quite a long while. And that’s for many reasons. I’ve been broken and my light went out. Looking back, it was out for quite a long while, and it sometimes takes hitting rock bottom to realize how far you’ve fallen. This is for anyone out there dealing with depression or anxiety, addiction or substance abuse – for anyone suffering loss and sadness. It’s time to reverse the nightmare and get our wings back. ‪#‎NotBrokenAnymore‬


Written by SJ VanDee

Recovery Blogger. Sober AF. Photographer. Storyteller. Writer.


    1. Agree…we’re all works in progress 🙂 Last April was the darkest of dark times…actually the months leading up to it were. I’ve come a long way since then, but I just wanted to place this here as a reminder for myself…to keep working at it 🙂

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